water aerobics

almost a full week in georgia. it's gone by shockingly fast despite the lack of activity. it was sad to leave kate and the kittens in new york, but i am quite glad to see these women i have missed so much. i worry about saying too much. i feel like so much of my summer has revolved around renfrew, but i don't want to constantly bring it up just to tell i story or attempt a laugh. i'm terrible with boundaries, sometimes i feel it might be best if i say nothing at all.

i'm missing my renfrew loves so much that my heart hurts. i want to be there for all of them, and at times i'm afraid to share my pain and concerns because i don't want to burdon them - even though i know that if i were in their place, i would want to know. i just hate being the focus of things. i'm trying my best to believe that i can't help others until i help myself.

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i'm having a rough time with school scheduling and such. because the last couple semesters were terrible (for lack of a more descriptive word), i'm behind credit wise and am not considered to be a junior. while this isn't the biggest deal in the world, it hurts my pride. i had high expectations for myself.